A backseat debutaunte with everything she wants

So today I was hanging out with the Roses and Kim had a friend with her that reconized me. She is the little sister of my friend Gerri who I haven't talk to in about a year or more. Oh how small the valley is....

So I was sick for a week and it sucked because Monday I ended up in the ER with another kidney infection. So I am at home resting and trying to get better as fast as I can.

First of all I need to post more. Especially for that special person who lives far away. You know who you are.

Here are some new things in the land of myself that seem important at the moment

I officially have responsibilities. I am now a director for the Come Again Players. They voted me in this past Saturday. Unanimously. It was awesome, then during preshows the entire audience swore at me. Because at Rocky we don't swear in we swear at. I am very honored that i can do this for my community. And hopefully this will be the first of my many titles.

The other big news is that I cut off all of my hair. It is all gone. I'll post pictures some where, or you will just have to wait and see.

My house is awesome. I have the best room mates ever.

I am going to have more hours at work starting this week. And I have a new responsibility. I am ordering girl. Yea for money.

I also have to much free time. So I want to go back to school so much. We will see how that goes.

Um that seems to be it for now. More later.

So it is offical Aves has died. She was the perfect first car and I am going to miss her very much. Any Aves stories you have please leave a comment. We are going to have a "funeral" sometime this week.

This past week I spent up at my parents house taking care of my little sister. And I sucked at it.
She was sick this week and I did stay home one day to take care of her but after that I went and did things that I had to do/ wanted to do and left her alone. Some days she did have friends. But they couldn't take care of her. I would leave her with food and something to watch. What a bad parent I would be right now. I have too many things going on right now, too many things that I don't want to give up to take care of someone all the time. Until I feel like I can do that and become just a little less lazy, then I can have a kid. It makes me want to get on birth control all the more so that I don't have kids until I/ we are ready. I think if I can ace taking care of my sister than that is the first step in being ready. The main problem was that I forgot that I had something going on and had already made comitments... yet another thing that when I stop doing I will be closer to being able to having kids. Well at least I think so.

So on the 17th of March I will be Janet again. So everyone who can should come and see me. It will be tons of fun. Emily is in town so I wanted her to see me in the role. So Bob being awesome let me in that week.
-Ana

I'm so bad at this. But I'm trying. So now the most exciting things happening in my life. My one year anniversary with Tam is on Sunday. This Saturday and Sunday are Nia's one act plays at 7 at North Star. They will be fabulous. And I think it is donation only so if you have no money that is okay. In January I am playing Frank (the 6th) and Janet (the 20th) with Tam as Rocky across from my Janet. I am enrolled at Umass Amherst. And hopefully will stay there. So for the moment that is what is going on.

So this morning I was made breakfast in bed. An omlette with toast. I of course was too tired to eat. But it is the thought that counts. Ah Tam is wonderful and I really like living with him. And want to spend more time up at the Ark, which I am working on.

As the title suggests, last nights dinner went very well. When we got there we helped them finish making dinner. While we were helping Tam began telling his current story. Sitting down to dinner my Dad made a toast to family. We had really great converstations all night, Tam started to show Kenya pictures... Lisa has heard about Magic and seems intrested. Of course I wouldn't let Tam go on about it, but he was impressed that she knew about it and pick up that the rules of Flux are the rules of Magic but Flux fixed all the errors of Magic. And today my dad told me that he also had a really great time last night. That he really likes Tam and that we should do it again some time. Because it went so well I might take him to Lynn's. In time. But I'm really glad that everything went so well. It just makes life so much easier.

This weekend Gwen and I went to Wells. And had a good time, we both did and then it ended on a bad note and... yeah I don't want to talk about that part.

The weekend went as follows
Gwen and I left way late on Friday for a number of reasons, all my fault. So we didn't get to Wells until about two a.m. My cell phone died so I couldn't call Amber to get into her dorm. Luckly there was an open door that we could get in to. We were looking around for Amber's room and ran into Amber. Then saw Kate who is now Amber's room mate. Then we hung out with Sara and Courtney. Went to sleep. And actually didn't have to sleep on the floor. There was an extra mattress on their floor that we used and they had blankets and pillows. Woke up the next day went down to Dories. A small cafe in the town. Then showed Gwen around campus. Saw everyone and hung out and talked to them about everything that happened last semester. We had dinner with everyone and then went to disco dodge. I had a great time there. I mean Amber was dancing! She never dances and she danced. Then went to sleep. Woke up ate and then left. Had some car trouble but got home fine.
But they all have changed. They have grown closer together. It was great to see them. And i have planned to go and see them in November. Don't know who I am taking with me or if I will go alone. But the drive isn't that bad and visiting in small incriments seems I good idea. I am garenteed to have a good time. And even though I have good times and part of me wants to go back, it is easier to go to school here and visit them at least twice a semester. There is only one group of people to visit istead of many here. I might try and find a way to go there for another semester but that's all. I dunno. Anyways...

So tomorrow I go away with Gwen to Wells. So excited about it. I really want to show someone the campus. And seeing everyone will be nice. Plus I don't have to drive alone!
Amber called me today just to make sure that I am coming. I am so glad to see her again. Everyone really.

So I feel like I have earned my title as lighting manger. Next Saturday I will be out of town with Gwen. So we will not be at Rocky and Micah has called out next week too. So who will do lights? Well our third in command Anthony and the lovley Lisa. Yeah it feels good that lights will not fail without Micah and I there. It means we are doing our job right. The training job that is. On another Rocky note... Michael actually remember to take me off next weekend with out me emailing him. It was great... So Michael if I didn't make it clear last night, there ya go.

So yeah I'm going out of town with Gwen. We are going to Wells. The school that I used to go to. I'm excited. I get to show her the beautiful campus and she can meet everyone there. And the biggest thing, everyone there will actually know that I like girls. So yeah, should be good weekend. Plus it is one of those cute couple things... going away together. I have yet to do that with Tam. And Lisa and I just got together so yeah.

Next topic.... LISA!!!!!!!!

So I now have another girlfriend and so far so good. She writes me poetry which Emily is jelious of. (She says she can't make her feelings that vocal) She wants to buy me flowers and spend money on me.... When did I become so special? She isn't the only one. Gwen talks about to her co-works and there was a time when she would only talk about work and me. Tam always says that he is the luckiest guy to be with me. That he has always loved me and always will. I mean wow... talk about building me self confidence. Oh and Jaime said that I was her favorite girlfriend once removed.

So I believe that I am going to become less busy. I am droping one of my classes. I need all the sleep I can get and my 10 am class is to early for me. The class is in Greenfield so it is between 30 and 40 min away. The reason I am so tired latley is my lack of iron in my system. I'm working on putting more in but it is going to take a while.

Nothing else going on that I can think of....

So last night I went over to Lisa's for dinner. And then spent the night there. Had a great cuddle time with Jason and Lisa that was compared to marshmellows. Tam went with Alec and Crystal into Alec's room and it sounded like they had lots of fun. But the important part of this was in the morning Tam came into say good morning and even though he had a good time, it wasn't anything compared to being with me. That's what I need to hear from my primary. And what makes me want to stay in a poly relationship. That I am not replaced.

So this happened a few days ago but now is the first opertunity to update about it. On Saturday morning I went to the ER. I had severe abdominal pains in my right side. They turned out to be a kidney infection. The pains actually started on Friday night a dance spree. I had to go because it was Tam's birthday. So I went to spree and was in pain just about the entire time. But it was worth it. They sang this song to him that Emily you first sang to me/ showed me. "God danced the day you were born. The Angels did the bump to Gaberiel's horn. God danced the day you were born grateful for the gift of you." Because I was in lots of pain I asked wonderful Matt Merkle to drive my car up to the ark. Which by the way he is a very good driver. So the Ark was so good. We all told why we think Tam is such a great person. And it reminded me all those reasons that I'm with him. So I went to sleep early... 3:30 in the morning and everything was fine. Then Tam got in at about 6 in the morning and that is when I puked. I called my mom told her what happened and said that she should call me cause I couldn't go into work. She called at about 7:30 and it was then that she said go to the ER. The pain might have been my appendix and if it burst that would be bad. So Tam got up after two hours of sleep and drove me. And as I was driving in the car I realized just how much he loves me. I know it seems stupid that I wouldn't know until now, but somehow I always doubt it. But this just proved to me that all those things that people said the night before. Just by driving me to the ER. I didn't mind the hospital. Everyone was so nice and friendly. Even though I was one of many I felt like the only one. It was very comforting to do things the "normal" way because I hardly do it that way. So over all the experience was good except for the fact that I have a kidney infection. So yeah.

(Hi my name is Ana and I'm dating Gwen because I thought she was really non-threatening because she wasn't trying to get in my pants--at least until we were dating, anyway--like everyone else. I'm also really awesome and cute and fun and getting better from the damn kidney infection.)

So my family and I have moved into our new house. And I like our old house better, even if my room didn't have heat. As my step father put it "We are paying for a mansion and living in a construction site." I do like the house and I think I would love the house if I was living there with a bunch of my friends and not my family. The house is not a "family" house. I think if I make that my main residence I will go insane. The Ark looks more and more apealing. There seems like one of the biggest reasons to make sure that Tam and I's relationship works. Ah... I want things to be settled.

Moving.... to Leverett and very close to the store.... we had to clean it, which sucked but I like it...

So I went to Lynn's house last night for dinner. It was fun to see everyone. Food was excellent as usual. Gotta love cheese sauce. I asked her for a recomendation letter. She said yes, but I need to write my little blurb first, that's okay. But she thinks I need a third. Of course I don't. The application says LETTERS. It does not say how many it just means more than one which now I have. So I asked Michael. Said he didn't have to do it if he didn't have time, because it isn't nessacary. But it would be nice to have another glowing letter. But Lynn wanted Jonathan to write it. I can't ask him. He is like my dad and family members can't write letters. It is just to weird for me. Anyway Lynn wouldn't let go of it. And it was just agrivating.

"You're beautiful when you sleep (even if you do steal the blankets)" I heart my girlfriend like whoa

Things are finally starting to come together for this Fall. I just talked to Ken from NorthStar and I have two classes there in the fall! One of them is a GSA. Where we can talk about being gay and all that kind of stuff and sexuality in general. I am so excited it is going to be an awesome class/ group. He is also giving me a recomendation letter. So yeah. That is my news. And my girlfriend rocks not just because i can use her stuff but she is just wonderful. *swoon* Birth control sucks... mainly because I have no control on what kind of mood I will be in. But yea for being safe! Hungry Ghost is the best thing ever! Food, money, family.... just about everything one needs.